my week jux turned around.. =)

Friday, December 4th, 2009 3:03am

What a way to end the year on a positive note after how much I've gone through this whole year! *sigh* I feel like I'm in a complete state of happiness right now! Everything that I have worked so hard for academically is finally paying off! =) I'm one step closer to my ultimate goal. I hope I made my parents proud today! =)

To my endearing family: You are always my priority in life and always will be no matter what! You are my life, my love, my world, my everything!! You are the main reason I am so driven, motivated and focused right now. I promise to work hard so that you can have the best of me and also the best of everything I can offer with my two bare hands. =)

To my inspiring friends: I hope the five of you know that you gals are a source of inspiration for me! You are my role models and though I am busy at times, I promise to always keep you girls close at heart, mind and spirit! There's always that old saying my parents would always recite day in and day out; "gan muc thi den, gan den thi sang!" =) When I was younger, I thought it was annoying and untrue but as I get older, I realize it's as true as can be!! You girls spark a competitive edge in me to do well in life!! But not for the fancy cars or for the big ol' house, but for the sake of responsibility, maturity and self fulfillment. You girls are all beautiful, intelligent and hardworking. I can only hope and try my best to one day join you girls in our little circle of successful women! =)

To __ __ __: Thank you for being by my side through the good, the bad and the ugly situations; through the thick and the thin; and most importantly, through the rainy days.. (may i add that seattle rains quite often too!) =) You've ignite a fire in this soulless body after many years of confinement. Life is that much more beautiful with your ever glorious presence. You didn't even budge when the big bad wolf tried to chase you out of the mysterious jungle. Instead, you stood behind to fight with bravery, courage and charisma. With patience and kindness, even the toughest mountain ranges were moved. =)

i love to love

i hate to hate

i would travel for miles

for one perfect date

i love smile

i hate to grin

i would go the distance

just to plant one on your chin

i love to snuggle

i hate to let go

i am forever yours

but this already know

i love to comfort

i hate to see you cry

i will climb the highest mountain

yes for you baby, i will try

where i was a year ago...

Friday November 20th, 2009 3.44 am

It's almost 4am and my mind is still wired despite the rhythmic sound of the soothing rain. It's melody that beats against my bedroom window carries a note of strength and courage that now harmonizes with the beat of my aching heart. Together, they created a mesmerizing love song.

I have always adored the rain. Though most find the rain to be of a nuisance; I view it as a symbol of romance and purity. Romance represents the tears shed when love is lost or found and purity because I believe that rain can truly cleanse one's soul.

Amazing how many thoughts will race around in my head from just lying here in a darkened room. This rain has strike up a strange feeling from within. The state of mind I was in last year at this same time seems to be of something very far away now; almost like I was in a totally different world. Guess you can say that I've grown a little; physically and mentally. =)

My runny nose has been bothering me all night. Not to mention, the minor headaches in between. It is also nights like these when I long for the embrace of my warm hearted mother.

*sigh* miss the rice porridge she makes whenever I'm sick. =(

When I was younger I've always thought that on this journey call life, the amount of company I have around me would improve not only in quantity, but also in quality. Yet, as I'm looking into this mirror called reality, there seems to be only one clear reflection and a few shadows lurking around in the midst of the night. My circle of friends should be increasing in size and growing with love. Quite the contrary! Matter of fact, it shrank so much, I am now hesitant to reach out for another hand. I fear I might trip before I can get to one.

With that stated, I wonder if a lover can really be a best friend at the same time?! =? Can you ever be soOooOo comfortable with another human being that you can say anything, do anything and feel anything without fearing they might run away or judge you?! Can there ever be such a trust level where both partners are very secured of themselves?! Is this what the general public would consider to be the elements of a soul mate?! hm..

Carrie Bradshaw ended up with Mr. Big despite everything they went through. Well, more like despite every relationship they went through. Even at that rate it still seems somewhat perfect. Guess a ship just has to cruise around the world in order to dock at a perfect port! Otherwise, how else would you know if that port is the best and most suitable? Options is the key! =)

Then again, someone once told me, "easy come, easy go." for the fun of this blog, I will name that friend Mr. Big. =) "A real relationship will have bumps here and there, ups and downs, just like a roller coaster!" exclaimed Mr. Big, "If a roller coaster didn't have any high and low points, it wouldn't be a very fun ride." Males seem to think they have an answer for everything! =)

Well, as you would say it Mr. Big, "only time will tell." So I will bid you good night for now. Until next time! =)